why is it so hard to follow your head

why couldn't I just let him go and tell him that I can't forget what he has done??
went there, cook pasta , with dash of maple cyrup , garlic, lots of mushrooms and port,everything he like!
he loves it.  i feel so happy when he went to get a second plate, we watched alice in the wonderland, a very strange movie.. well well talk about imagination.
then i left, he is too tired.
i just never have the courage to say i love you and then neither do i have the gut to say I want to leave you.
i wish he could break me up.
can i ever forgive him? cook dinner for him last time and then fell asleep because he is just playing games? well, he wasn't like that today..
go see some random chinese girl when he could have given me a call if he feels lonely.
please, give me a break.
maybe that is what we need, a break.

Do-it-yourself Daily Feet Maintenance

from Rogue:

1. Sit at the edge of your bathtub and apply a foot scrub. Choose one that contains your favorite essential oils or make your own by combining 1 tablespoon olive oil with 1 tablespoon raw sugar, oatmeal or chickpea flour. Massage the scrub into your feet and leave it on for five minutes. If time permits, soak hand towels in warm or hot water, and wrap them around your feet. This seals in moisture and works in the same way as a paraffin wax treatment.

2. Keep a foot brush or designated washcloth in the shower. Pour liquid soap onto your chosen scrubber and rub until your heels and toes are thoroughly clean. Three times a week while showering, run a foot file vigorously across your heels and soles. Be sure to replace your file once a month to avoid bacteria buildup.

3. Immediately after your bath or shower, slather your feet with a thick body butter, taking care to massage the lotion into your heels and soles. 

4. For an added moisture boost, twice a week before you go to bed, rub olive oil all over your feet and soles, and sleep with socks on.